a year ..
well just about in the same time last year I have the same feeling
Christmas just around the corner
I was dreaming to have such a Christmas this year
as I feel so complete this year with all people I love around
..
but I guess I am not sure if it will happen anymore
These past few days, I started to lost this spirit of Christmas
All my hopes of Christmas
is just all to high.. maybe
and at the end
.......................
Its quiet a relieve moment
I just went to a penitence sacrament
I feel quiet peaceful when I was there and so afterwards
before something sucks came out
and I end up with hate feeling again tonight
I really don't know what is happening lately
Everything just fall apart
I feel so down
once I stand back up, he or others keep let me down again
I really have no clue on what's God plans now on me
but anyhow,
I keep trying to believe that He will have a better plan for me..
I don't know , if it has to happen than let it be
I really start to can't bear it anymore..
I thought someone has promise to never broke my heart
but its all just words..
isn't it?
Its so hard to imagine..
how I could pass through all this..
maybe all I wish for Christmas is..
just God to show me his way and guide me through
because I feel like I just got knock down so badly
