early 20 confusion

pity my brain
I don't think it get enough time to rest recently,
it just won't stop working
in everything I do, everytime,
those stuff just keep spinning inside my brain.

school,hours,work,post-graduate,business,visa,parents
all this stuff!!
cant it just be one way for me to choose
cant it just be me life my live??
for now I wish I can not-to-care of other people
sighhhh..

but I can't..
think of others that just make me more confused
of what should I do of this life

I have so many plans
I have so many things that I want to do
but it just does not seems easy for me to walk pass

I wish there is not as many option as I have now
it just makes me sick

Dad, can't I just go back to my home country,
life like I used to have before,
I want to play my piano,
dance on every night,
involve in many organisation and activities

I want to just enjoy my life

but I know,

there is always the hard part of life

and I guess this is the other one,
all I need to do is just believe to my self and GOD
let God guide me through,
once I pass this, all will just be fine.
and GOD will always have the best for me

God,parents,boyfriend,friends, please support me through this >.<

no delusion, it's a choice of life


.girl who need a support.